I've been in my new house for 6 weeks. I absolutely love it here! I love the town, I love the conveniences, I love the friends that I have made in such a short amount of time. However, I have been completely thrown off my routine. I was getting frustrated with being stalled at 57 pounds. I haven't been to the gym in a few weeks. I went on Monday but I didn't go back.
Well, that brings me to this.... I just WON FREE PERSONAL TRAINING by a trainer local to me. This has me so incredibly pumped up again.
Here's what I just wrote to her in an email.
I just wanted to tell you a bit about me.
I'm 5'2" and I weigh right now 155. My highest weight was 218 and my starting out weight in August was 211.
I started about August 10th to lose the weight that I have and worked my hiney off. Since moving to this new city everything has stalled. I joined the Y but I don't love it. It's huge. I'm used to my little bitty gym where I knew everyone. And since moving, I've been kind of thrown off track. I worked so so hard at losing the weight that the last month I've just been relaxing. I haven't been to the gym much b/c I do own my own business and I'm trying to meet people etc.
I miss the gym. I miss feeling so good about myself. I'm starting to feel like that fat girl again that I so dreadfully hated. I still have a lot of fat on my body and I want to get rid of it. I'm smaller now than when I was on my wedding day. I want to get back into my routine. I'm so excited because this will push me back into beast mode lol I feel so so so so much better when I'm working out but lately I've just had excuses b/c I don't get enough time in the day to work and I have to make money to pay bills. But hopefully, life will be a little easier b/c I just hired someone to help me and my mom will be retiring in may and she will be helping me too.
Anyway, so yes, I've been quite down in the dumps lately because I got out of my routine. When I was working out I felt so darn good about myself and since I haven't I feel all those yucky feelings again. I don't like it and READY to work!
My original goal was 140 but at 5'2" I am sure my body could be smaller? I have no clue. I have ALWAYS been overweight. My goal is to wear a dress and to be able to wear shorts. I have loose skin from the weight loss and I still have a tummy that just needs to go. I'm ready so stinking ready.
This has been such an amazing ride. I feel so good that I've lost this much weight yet because I haven't been routinely working out and lately I'm starting to have all those yucky thoughts again. I don't like them and I want them to go away. I love the feeling I have when I'm training. I love that I feel so good about myself.
You have to FIGHT for everything you want. Eating Healthy is not easy. It takes a huge commitment. Going to Culvers or McDonalds etc is just so darn easy to do. It's so easy to eat the junk. DON'T!!! Don't eat it. It's all in your head to be healthy. Fight for your LIFE. It's 100% MENTAL!! Love yourself and get started!
I am fighting for my life and I'm fighting to love myself. I'm going to get this last 15 pounds off! WATCH ME!!
